Three months ago I sat down and made a plan for my sabbatical. On the list was five main points: sewing, writing, learning Dutch, eco-nonsense and achieving general clarity about the future.
Did I sew? Well, yes. But not nearly as much as thought, which has to do with the fact that I was basically traveling the whole time except for three weeks. I have to say, though, that it’s pretty well done to manage to make a pair of shorts, a circle skirt*, another skirt and a bra thingie during three weeks. What I didn’t make was the stunning Vogue dress. How about the promised mending of all my ragged clothes? Uh-oh. Two pairs of jeans and a pair of slingback heels fixed, a dozen garments left in an Albert Heijn-bag under my desk constantly calling my attention.

Did I write? I kept the blog. And I analyzed my headlines very thoroughly! Other than that, nada. But I do feel it’s made a difference and I really enjoy getting back into a daily bidaily ok, weekly habit of jotting some words down on paper the internet.

Did I learn Dutch? Staying a week in Rijen and topping it off with beers in Breda, I surely advanced. And I’m very motivated to keep learning.

Did I eco? Not really. Which is a shame. I even broke my promise of not buying any clothes as I fell for a Uniqlo cardigan in New York. I’ve still got plans on that compost though!

Did I achieve clarity about the future? I decided in favour of Amsterdam. I want to stay here for the time being. It’s taken me a long time to admit that to myself, but I’m happy with the little things in my little life right now, and I want to enjoy it while I can. That still doesn’t mean I know a thing about my working situation or what happens with me and Toby, but I’ve stopped worrying (well – again, for the time being). Which counts for quite a lot in my case.

What about those lovely travels then? Yes, I have to add this extra point. Jamaica was – to use a very cheesy Swedish expression – like balm for the soul: blue waters, green hills, lush jungle, smiling people, warm breeze, good food, road adventures, and of course spending more consecutive time with my brother than I have since we lived together. England was also stunning natural beauty and great food, but then paired with indie music, motherly care and a happy dog. And New York was the big city, not at all as uptight and hurried as I’d imagined it, catching up with Toby over fine wine, singing karaoke in Koreatown, nauseating performance art at MoMA, a failed busride on Staten Island and the final realization that when I went back home, I went home.

Which leaves us with the conclusion:

Fair enough!
* The coral-coloured skirt actually turned out so good it attracted the attention of one of the MoMA security guards in NYC, forcing him to awkwardly small-talk to me about art for several minutes before he confessed “I just wanted to tell you you’re so beautiful”. Well done, skirt!